Our Weekend

Hannah had an eye appointment Friday morning and we found out she does not need her eye patched – her glasses are helping enough. So that was good news. She really did not want to be a pirate. We also had to swing by Target before her appointment and they put up a new background behind Bullseye.

My sister brought my niece, nephew and her step-son over Friday night for a sleepover. We watched Aladdin (the new one, which was terrible) and then they went outside before bed. We saw three rabbits but did not see the bear that is supposedly lurking around.

Saturday was an early, stormy day. My nephew, who usually sleeps in, was up at 6am. So once everyone was up, we went to Cub for donuts.

After the kids left on Saturday morning, we went to Target to get their Halloween costumes/pajamas. We did this last year too, and it makes more sense than spending $100 on costumes they will only wear once. Lauren also needed a photo with Bullseye.

Avery is not pictured because she was spending the weekend at her friend’s house.

Overall, it was a busy, fun weekend. I definitely don’t need anymore kids though. Three is enough!

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Anxiety and Getting Out of the House

**This post does not contain tips because I don’t have any, but I need some.**

I have anxiety. Generalized and social. And probably every other sort of anxiety there is. It’s a part of me and has been since I can remember (kindergarten, ugh). I finally started getting help for it three years ago, and haven’t found that anything really helps. Not meds, not therapy, not meditation.

Tonight, there is a local photography club meeting. I signed up (and paid) back in August at the fair, but I have yet to attend a meeting because ANXIETY. I’m anxious about being around strangers. I’m anxious that my photography sucks compared to everyone else. I’m anxious that I have to bring my oldest child and that I will be judged for that. I’m anxious something will happen to the car on the way to or from the meeting (I’m anxious about the car in general).

I’ve been more anxious than usual this week. I don’t know what it is. Maybe the ridiculous summer temps? Threats of storms that never happen? School and homework getting overwhelming already? I don’t know.

I haven’t been to see my therapist in a long time because something always comes up. After next week, though, I am scheduled weekly until the end of October. I am also not on meds at the moment because I haven’t found something that works yet.

**UPDATE** I went to the meeting and I was fine. I knew I would be, but anxiety tells me something different. The next meeting is October 1, so I am planning on going to that. I probably should have posted this on my photography blog but I kind of want to leave that for pretty pictures.

inkWELL Press 2020 Planner

I finally ordered my new 2020 inkWELL Press Planner this week (only a week after launch day). I was worried the things I wanted would be sold out by now, but they weren’t. I got the Pacific Vegan Leather cover, silver discs, Poly Tabs, and the Classic Weekly planning pages. Nothing fancy this year, unless I decide to get the Goal Planning pages at some point (which I might).

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Everything fit (I was worried about the new Poly Tabs adding height) but it was a little snug. The cover and the pages still turn really smooth.

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In the box, they ship “Inklings” which are little quotes. I think mine fits because I want to branch out and not be so shy and introverted. We’ll see where it takes me.

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Another thing that shipped with the planner was a JOMO Bingo card. For those of you who don’t know, the owner of inkWELL Press Planners wrote a book that’s coming out on October 1! It’s called The Joy of Missing Out: Live More By Doing Less. I am a part of the Launch Team (I get an early copy to read and help promote the book) and I will be posting a review here soon. So far, I am loving it.

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This is the Goal Planning section in the Weekly Classic planner. It’s changed a little but over the years (I’ve been using inkWELL Press Planners since they started in 2014) but it’s definitely a change for the better. I love the colors and how it’s laid out.

I’ll be sticking the last three and a half months of my old planner in here so I can start using it immediately, and planning out 2020, which is somehow just around the corner.

PS: You can preorder the Joy of Missing Out anywhere books are sold or on JoyOfMissingOut.com and get some awesome preorder goodies!

Second Week of Fall Semester

I had class on Monday even though it was a holiday. A perk of online classes is that you can do your work any time, any where. I managed to finish three short quizzes and make some progress of a large assignment.

At the end of the first week, I dropped a class. I was a week into in and already having anxiety attacks about it (math). The good news is that I didn’t need that class for my degree – it was just something I had hoped to do. Turns out, I just can’t do math.

I am down to a more-manageable four courses. I’m taking Beginning Spanish (which is harder than I thought, since there’s no textbook), a College Study skills course, a child development course on curriculum and planning, and Human Development from a Psychology standpoint. Nice and easy, right? Probably not!

Spanish is tough because she posts the directions to assignments in Spanish, and uses several videos, but I think it will be a fun class once it gets going. Thankfully, I’ve been using Duolingo for the past month so I know a little bit more than nothing.

Here’s to a great third week!

Fall Semester Goals

  • Spend lots of time outside – studying, playing with the kids at the park, going for walks at sunset, jumping in leaves
  • Go to bed shortly after the kids do each night – no more staying up late scrolling instagram
  • No procrastinating on schoolwork – do all assignments as soon as possible
  • Create a study schedule (#studyblr and #studygram on instagram are super inspiring!)
  • USE MY PLANNER
  • Skip mountain dew and just drink water (good for the body! good for the budget!)
  • Create a fall budget
  • Stick to my budget
  • Get out of the house and head to the coffee shops and libraries for studying

5 Tips For Staying Healthy in College

  • Drink water.
    • I carry around a metal 64oz cup (with a straw) because it keeps my water cold forever and using a straw seems to make it easier for me to drink more.
  • Walk as much as possible.
    • Park at the end of the parking lot. Take the stairs not the elevator. Eat lunch while you walk. Just take more steps. This in one tip I am having a hard time with. Taking my own advice and heading out for a walk now!
  • Choose fruits and veggies over junk in the cafeteria or pack your own lunch.
    • I am not a huge fan of fruits and veggies. I only like a few, and honestly, I’d rather grab a Reese’s Pieces Peanut Butter cup instead of a cup of pineapple, but you know, I need that pineapple more.
  • Don’t skip breakfast.
    • I am not a huge breakfast eater, but have an apple, banana, piece of toast. Something in your belly to help you focus.
  • Don’t stay up too late (especially if you have kids like I ┬ádo!)
    • For the past few nights, I’ve been going to bed at about 10:30. I still think this is a little late, since I don’t feel rested in the morning, but as the semester progresses I will adjust it. I read my Kindle app right before I fall asleep. I barely make it a few pages before I’m out. Do what works for you!

One Little Word 2019

As it turns out, I actually did have a word for 2019. It wasn’t until last week that I remembered though. I clearly didn’t choose the right one. Now that I think about it, there really hasn’t been a clear-cut word for 2019, unless you count “car trouble” and “house problems” but I don’t.

The word I chose last winter was “Joy”. It didn’t do anything for me. So I decided to choose a new word for the last four months of the year. My new word is “Intention”. Being intentional means doing the things that are important even if they’re not easy or fun. Being intentional means planning time for fun and unplugging during that time. It means spending more time face-to-face instead of on devices. It means being grateful for what I have and not worrying about what I don’t have.

Intention: a thing intended; an aim or plan.

I have a feeling this word will serve me well for the next four months.

Do you have a word for 2019? Do you need a new word?

Last Day of Summer Vacation

It seemed like a very short summer, at least to me. Well, the days dragged on and on while the weeks went by quickly. We finally went swimming at the beginning of August. It was short-lived because apparently the lake isn’t fun anymore? I don’t know. But it was a thing crossed off of our summer to-do list, so.

We went the fair, too. It was the last day, and it was hot and humid, so we didn’t stay long. Just long enough to get some donuts.

Avery turned 10. She was actually at her gramma’s house for her actual birthday, so she helped gramma make a cake and pick out her birthday card. All the kids were at gramma’s that week for Bible School. It was the first year they could all go together and they had a blast!

In June, we found out that their beloved Papa (my dad) would need a quadruple bypass and valve replacement. His heart wasn’t strong enough at the time to go into surgery, so he’s been on meds to hopefully strengthen his heart. We are hoping to get a surgery date sometime in September. The longer he waits, the worse it gets. (These are screenshots from Instagram. Sorry they look blurry!)

I’m going a little out of order, but mid-July, two out of the three kids went to Summer School. Can you tell Hannah was a little sad?

Lauren wrote a letter to her teacher telling her all the fun things she did this summer. Top of her list? Papa’s house and playing My Little Pony with her sisters.

Hannah’s excited, though she may not look like she is.

Sunday Fun Day

We are spending our last weekend before school starts…doing nothing. Absolutely nothing.

Avery’s a 5th grader now, so that means homework, homework, homework. I don’t think she realizes how much there will be, since she hasn’t had any for the past few years. Now she’ll have homework in every class. So do I, so I can feel her pain.

Well, that’s it for now. Gotta get back to doing nothing.

Happy Sunday!