Another Day of Therapy

I wasn’t scheduled to see my therapist until September, but she had a last-minute cancellation so I was able to get in. I was in a fairly decent mood going into it and I feel like that makes me less anxious about it.

I tend to quit things that are hard or that I don’t see progress from. I’ve been to therapy before – in 2017 and 2018. But I didn’t stick with either of those for longer than a few sessions. I’m an introverted introvert – I hate talking to people, I don’t like leaving my house, and I really hate to be judged. However, I think I’ve found a therapist that I feel comfortable with, and I actually want to go to each session. I get disappointed when I have to wait a month for my next appointment. I take that as a good sign.

This is only my fourth session with her, and I don’t know how much progress I’ve made, if any. But I know that I need to stick with it and see where it goes from here. I’m taking 18 credits this fall so I’m sure I’ll have plenty to talk about!

Photography Club

Today’s session was spent recapping the last two weeks, and informing her that I joined some local groups. The first one is a photography club. I am not confident in my photography skills (though I hear great things from people). I would like to be more confident, get some critiques on my work, and work on my skills as a photographer. There are monthly photo themes where we can submit our work for critique at the next meeting, and also several events throughout the community that I could help photograph.

One upside to this club is that it forces me to get out into the community, attend events, and photograph things I wouldn’t otherwise photograph (I mostly take photos of my kids and Cat). Of course, being an introvert, that is also a huge downside, because I would rather stay in my house than go out. But I’ve already paid my yearly dues and my first meeting is in two weeks!

Writer’s Group

The other group I joined just last night is a local writer’s group. I haven’t been able to write fiction since I took a creative writing college course in the Fall of 2017. I got some really harsh feedback from the instructor and since then, I can’t sit down and write like I used to. I loved writing, and wrote only for myself. To hear the things that were said about me and my writing just shook me and I can’t seem to get over that.

My therapist is hopeful that this local writing group can help me through that, give me some inspiration to actually write, and also get me out of the house (I prefer writing on the couch while binge-watching Supernatural for the hundredth time). The first meeting I am (hopefully) able to attend is next weekend. The only issue I may have is finding childcare since the meeting is three hours long. I don’t have family nearby to help out anymore, so I’m not sure what I’ll do. I know I can’t bring them along – that’s too long for three kids to sit nicely!

Unless there is another cancellation, this will be my last therapy session until the middle of September. I really am a little sad about that. Tomorrow, however, is another acupuncture session, so we’ll see how that goes.

Acupuncture for Depression and Anxiety

I have been getting treated for depression and anxiety, among other things, for the past two years. I’ve been on just about every med and combination, and haven’t really felt any relief, just side effects. I’ve also been to therapists (currently seeing my third), but for someone with social anxiety, it’s hard to get to my appointments sometimes, and I have a hard time opening up to people. I like my current therapist though, and have appointments scheduled through the end of October.

I drive by the acupuncture center all the time on my way to the store and my therapist, and I finally decided to make the call on Monday. I got in Wednesday. I’ll be honest – I am not the biggest fan of needles (who is?) which is why I’ve put this experience off for so long. I googled what would happen, side effects, and how long any relief is supposed to last. Going into my appointment, I was more nervous about talking to the doctor than I was about the actual procedure.

(I didn’t take any pictures because I felt weird about it and I put my phone away for the appointment.)

When I got to the appointment, the doctor talked about what acupuncture is and how it helps anxiety and depression. Then he did some chiropractic stuff and we went into the acupuncture room, which had a table and a pretty decent view. He told me what he was going to do, where he was going to place the needles and then he placed them in my feet, legs, hands, and head. I also got “semi-permanents” set into my ears, which are supposed to stay in for 3-5 days and provide relief when not at the appointment. They are gold and look like earrings. Kind of cool!

So, the big question? Do I feel any different? No, not really. Did I expect to? If we’re being honest, yeah. But I have another appointment next week and I’m going to keep going for awhile. I’m a little curious to see if this does actually help my anxiety and depression.

Acupuncture for Depression and Anxiety | What to Expect at the First Session